Well... the dance sucked. I got introuble for dancing too dirty a lot. School dances suck! Geez... I mean I dont think I was THAT bad. Im really surprised they didnt kick me out. Bo and I slow danced. Its really weird going out with him he's not my usually boyfriend. Now I reall do know I like girls way better. But Bo's ok I just need to adjust I guess. I know I wont be able to get a new girlfriend this year anyway. And he's not the best kisser in the world either. I think Ill just teach him next weekend...

After the dance I came home and started talking on msn. I got really depressed... I was really hoping the dance would make me be all happy and shit... but I wasnt at all... I was talking to Paige about it. She says I should join this group thing at my school, for depression. But I dont really think we have that group anymore for no one joined I think. Or atleast I havent heard about it but I guess thats the point. But I guess if I ever find myself depressed during school Ill head over... I really want to get better. Im worried about myself... about what Ill do to myself... Moving here has drove me mad and crazy and I dont know. Its a very big change from Washington... I want to survive this but I dont know if I can. I think Ill start praying again... but sometimes I doubt he listens to me anymore... Im not a very good person at times...

Im depressed right now... I hate it. I hate crying every single damn lonley day.