Arg...

I really don't know what to say to you today dear blog... Things have been weird... I guess. Im just in one of my depressed mood swings. Today was bleh and nothing really happened. It sounds really gay but I feel like stabbing someone. I just want to be left alone especially my parents. I have those times where I do not like being touched. And this is one of those times and I just know it... once I walk from this dormant room they'r going to touch me. Try and hug me or arg... it makes me wanna yell and say Stop fucking touching me! Im just really messed up...

I think I seriously need pills... but its not like my parents notice. Im good at hidding things. I do wanna get help really... but I dont like it when my parents or anyone sees me sad. Its kinda aqward when you go up to your parents and say 'Hey mom, I really think Im screwed up. I need pills and maybe a doctor or something. Im going suicidal living here.' Not your normal everyday talk after school huh?

*sigh* and when I acually want to do homework I forget it in my locker... I swear... God just loves Fucking with me.